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Name: Bethany
Birthday: 3/24/1987
Gender: Female
Interests: finger painting, mud wrestling, cow tipping, macaroni art, pretty pretty princess, thrifting, boy hunting, tickling the ivories, girly movies, bodily function anecdotes, carnage, pus, contact sports, pity parties, whipped cream
Expertise: procrastinating, tackling, lying, the face game
Message: message me
AIM:  betny05
Member Since:
1/11/2004
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| i think i've lost this writing thing. and that terrifies me. the only thing i can think to do is keep writing, but it doesn't feel the same. it doesn't feel forced; it just doesn't feel like me.
i can't write beautiful things about my life anymore because i can't find beautiful things in my life worth the words. i can't write funny things anymore because i'm not funny.
i used to write my life from my perspective. and that felt right. it felt sincere. now i can only write my life from someone else's perspective. and i can't figure out how that feels. i don't know if i'm any good at it.
writing's always been where my life was going, and right now it feels like it's going in a hundred different directions. i'm writing in a hundred different directions. which sentence do i follow?
this probably doesn't make any sense. and it probably doesn't matter because no one reads xanga anymore. but i guess i had to write it anyway.
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| i miss new york. maybe if i didn't know waco was so boring, i wouldn't miss it so much.
i've seen 4 movies in the past 4 days. all set in new york. that's not helping.
i think 2007 might have been the year i grew up. at least, it was the year i let go of some things and learned a ton about myself. but i guess i've got some more of that to do still.
bethany
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| new york is great and tiring and lonely all at the same time. if you actually want details, let me know and i'll add you to my e-mail update list. i'm told they're hilarious. but i don't believe everything i hear.
bethany
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| i finally got my ny internship. cosmogirl. i'll be the assistant to the deputy editor.
basically, everything worked out better than i hoped.
i'll be in new york in 11 days. i'm a little nervous.
bethany
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| xanga's out, huh? too bad.
last week of my internship.
only a month until new york. still no internship there yet.
bethany
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